2 Mommies and a Baby
Friday, October 06, 2006
jumping without a chute
I did it.
I have been job searching since May and a week ago, thought I had a winner. Then, the dream-tough-money-opportunity job that I interviewed in May was ready to hire. They wanted a second interview.
I have a confidence problem where I allow myself to believe that I am only as capable as my current boss treats me. I thought this dream-tough-money-opportunity job would be way over my head. I didn’t think I had the brains and class that they were looking for.
Then, a funny thing happened.
I got an offer...an offer that I never saw coming.
In the past few days, I have done some soul searching and am vanquishing the fears I allowed to creep up.
I am allowing the positive affirmations in and am disposing of the negative right now. This is a big thing for me.
I have accepted this offer at this firm that I never thought would even give me an interview. I accepted the offer because I know I can do this.
I was a bartender/waitress that decided to go to law school. I don’t think many people thought I could get through it, but I did. And I did well, dammit. I was President of student government, president of the GLBT law society, senior notes editor on a law journal, working in the practice clinic, even getting an award for practice and procedure, and getting pretty darn decent grades. And, then I passed the CT and NY bar exams on the first try.
Dammit, I am good enough for a job like dream-tough-money-opportunity job and they seem to think so too! I will seize this opportunity and prove myself right that I am capable.
It has been a long week with a lot of things swirling around in my head. On Monday, I was not thinking positive at all. On Wednesday, I was a basket case. I had two offers, one disappointing, the other overwhelming. That should not be considered a problem.
So, here we are. This is a big step. This is a step out of the comfort zone and into a big challenge with big opportunity.